Monday, July 16, 2007
scribbled by anna katrina
11:05 PM | 0 comments
11:05 PM | 0 comments
PLEASE ANSWER!!!
Hi... i need to know what you think of me...
So if you're my friend, please answer this!!!
THANK YOU!
http://kevan.org/johari?name=annabanz
So if you're my friend, please answer this!!!
THANK YOU!
http://kevan.org/johari?name=annabanz
Sunday, July 15, 2007
scribbled by anna katrina
9:30 PM | 0 comments
9:30 PM | 0 comments
the breakdown... BOW
Whoa.
Last friday, after a debate about breastmilk (hehe), I finally broke down. In the middle of my speech, there were some debaters who I felt were too 'mean' and 'intrusive' - they were reacting badly to the speech I worked hard on, and they were also being very vocal about it. Normally, I really wouldn't mind. After all, who else knows debate theatrics better than me? It was just that at that moment, there were so many things running through my head. I was having an off-week, I recently caved in to my vices again (which I swore I wouldn't do anymore), and I was suffering a 'love' problem, the latter being the culprit of the first two.
I talked to RJ about my problem and he suggested that I take the week off. I needed space and time daw to just mull things over, and start putting things back into place. Gosh - I didn't even know how messed up I was until that very conversation. It seemed like in everything I do, I'm being held back by this effin 'problem'. I told him I'd think about it.
The next morning, I woke up SO SICK. I had sipon and ubo, my head was spinning, and my throat was so sore. I didn't know why. I guess the 'breakdown' wasn't just mental and emotional, it was also physical. It was like my body was just responding to how I felt. Hahay. Could my life get any worse?
I'm still sick. Probably sicker than I was last saturday. And I'm not sure I'm getting the 'rest' RJ wanted me to have.
I know, I know, I'm pushing myself too far. But what can I do? I'm hard-headed.
I deserve all of this.
Fuck love.
Last friday, after a debate about breastmilk (hehe), I finally broke down. In the middle of my speech, there were some debaters who I felt were too 'mean' and 'intrusive' - they were reacting badly to the speech I worked hard on, and they were also being very vocal about it. Normally, I really wouldn't mind. After all, who else knows debate theatrics better than me? It was just that at that moment, there were so many things running through my head. I was having an off-week, I recently caved in to my vices again (which I swore I wouldn't do anymore), and I was suffering a 'love' problem, the latter being the culprit of the first two.
I talked to RJ about my problem and he suggested that I take the week off. I needed space and time daw to just mull things over, and start putting things back into place. Gosh - I didn't even know how messed up I was until that very conversation. It seemed like in everything I do, I'm being held back by this effin 'problem'. I told him I'd think about it.
The next morning, I woke up SO SICK. I had sipon and ubo, my head was spinning, and my throat was so sore. I didn't know why. I guess the 'breakdown' wasn't just mental and emotional, it was also physical. It was like my body was just responding to how I felt. Hahay. Could my life get any worse?
I'm still sick. Probably sicker than I was last saturday. And I'm not sure I'm getting the 'rest' RJ wanted me to have.
I know, I know, I'm pushing myself too far. But what can I do? I'm hard-headed.
I deserve all of this.
Fuck love.