I haven't really updated this blog in a while... and no, it wasn't because I had nothing to write about, nor was it because I had no time. I just felt that I needed to arrange my emo life-stuff first before I share them with everyone. So here goes...

For those of you who know me personally, you must know how I've been wanting to shift to Mass Com for the past year. After flunking accountancy, and declaring numbers as my mortal enemy, my mind was set to being a free soul - and I sincerely hoped that I would find what I was looking for in Mass Com.

Well, I guess the wait is over, and the quest has begun. I am now officially a comm student... and let me tell you that I've never felt better in my entire life. Who would have thought that being enrolled could feel THIS good? I certainly didn't. In CBA, enrolling meant work - lining up for the absurdest of reasons, and being stuck in that line for hours, under extreme heat (from the sun and from the crowding students) only to be told to come back the following day. No offense to CBA... I had fun in my two years of stay there. But the whole place - the rules, the atmosphere, the curriculum, the lessons, heck, the building - aren't for me.

Debate has probably a lot to do with my change in perspective. After being exposed to all the knowledge and information and theories (as told by RJ, hehe), I couldn't help but feel deprived of all the wonderful things in store for me. And graduating in CBA would've limited my learning and future even more, as the education concentrates on the rules of business rather than exploring the intricacies of society, politics, etc.

Don't get me wrong, in CBA, you can do the things you love - even if they're beyond business. It's just that I needed the right crowd, the right motivation to make me do wonders with myself. Back there, I settled for mediocrity - knowing that there were students far better than me at numbers, at problem solving and whatnot. I never pushed myself as hard because I was convinced that I couldn't go farther even if I tried. Trapped as I was, I started drifting away from focus and interest in school. I paid more attention to the things I was passionate about, like debate, poetry, people, politics, etc. I may have been a good thinker, but a very bad student.

And now, I feel free. Not free as in I have more free time to slack off, but free as in consciously knowing that I could go anywhere I want from here. That I could explore so many possibilities - and the people surrounding me are going to help me discover myself more, and my passion. I just feel like I've been given another chance to start over. Hahay. I couldn't even give you enough explanation for the happiness I feel.

Sure, I know that it isn't going to be a smooth ride. Like any other student, I have to strive for excellence still. But now, I feel empowered to do what I want, to speak out in my classes and to not be afraid to seem like a know-it-all to my classmates. I guess I've found the right place for me.

No more shifting na. Promise.

I'm so super crazy about Pon & Zi! Don't you just want to hug them and squeeze them or something? I know they're supposed to be emo cartoons (emo here apparently has negative stigma) but they're just so cute and adorable!!! =) I'll post more Pon and Zi pictures soon. I have like a hundred of them. Hehehe